Two Posts!

What! Two posts in one day?! Well technically, it's already Monday... but really who cares. I just wanted to take a minute and get a few thoughts written down. I've been browsing Pinterest and I've seen alot of quotes along the lines of "Just remember he's going to treat her the way he treated you" or "Don't worry, the things you didn't like about him she will hate too." That right there, really aggravates me.

 Let's get a couple of things straight. Some people are delusional and they think they're being treated poorly because they're not always getting their way or there are alot of arguments. It takes two people to argue. If you're the one doing all the fussing/bitching/complaining and your significant other is just looking at you like you're nuts or is just chuckling... then you're the one picking the fights. I've been with people like this, they flip over EVERYTHING and secretly you think they're bipolar because that seems to be the only logical explanation but of course they don't see a problem with themselves. So if you're treating someone like crap then of course your partner isn't going to go above and beyond for you... why should they? When people are actually happy then they are going to act happy. I don't bash my exes... and if I did there would be only one I would do it to and that was back in the past. The way I treated them and the way they treated me is all because we weren't suited for each other... plain and simple. I was smart enough to end the relationships before rushing into marriages and having kids. But like I said, I would never talk bad about any of them... it's not the type of person I am. I know one day they will find someone who fits them perfectly and I'm glad I was a stepping stone to help them know what they want and don't want. Sure some of them might have yelled at me, over reacted about things, or didn't like the way I responded towards their opinions but by no means does that make them bad people or bad men for other women. Hell a few even cheated on me and yeah I may have been hurt at the time... but shit happens and they weren't the ones and that was a HUGE sign that they weren't.

On to the next quote... really? When you spend every day with someone for gee idk lets say 10 years. When you're with someone for that long and yall aren't even getting along and haven't been for the majority of the time then damn right some of the smallest crap they do is going to annoy the living shit out of you. It's just how things work. In my opinion it's a way of your mind telling you that "hey, maybe you're in a little over your head and here's my way of trying to tell you that you actually don't love this person since you want to be stubborn and deny it." I'm sure there's actually a scientific reason or something as to how over time little things like that mess with you... I've never really experienced it so maybe it's a mental thing for others. Alright, I'm a little off track. If you are with someone who really likes to party and you really don't... then it's probably not going to work out. If you're with someone who loves video games and you can't even figure out how to look around and move at the same time... then it's probably not going to work out. Yes, opposites attract... No polar opposites do not. Small opposites are what attract, like liking the same type of music but not all the same bands or one liking sports and the other would rather watch. There's still the same interests just to different degrees. I hope that makes sense haha. What I'm getting at is sure... you may not like something about someone but that definitely doesn't mean someone else is going to dislike the same things. 

Take me for example... I am a very laid back individual, it takes alot to anger me, it takes alot to get me to yell, and it takes alot to upset me. A few of my exes just didn't understand my "emotional detachment" to certain things and really... it's not something I truly understand myself. I've had alot happen in my past dealing with my biological father and one really bad relationship and everything that went on with those two things built me into a very strong woman. They also taught me how to handle my feelings and how to not let things affect me that I cannot change. I've never met anyone like me... well technically I met him lol, I just didn't know he was the same because we didn't start dating back then. Yes I'm talking about Kenny. It's strangely creepy how alike we are yet completely amazing at the same time. I've never been this way with anyone else. I've never been the touchy feely, always gotta kiss him, missing him when he's gone, "spending time" in the bedroom ALOT (lol) type of person. But for some reason that's how I am with him... I can't kiss him enough in a day, I can't look at him and not smile, and I can't tell him in words how much love I really hold for him. What I'm getting at is by just looking back on how I've acted in the past and how I act now... none of those quotes hold any truth. When you're in love and I mean really in love it changes you or rather, it brings out what you already are? I'm not really sure... maybe I've always been this way but never felt like anyone really deserved it? Idk, that just seems rather mean. Regardless, Kenny tells me all the time how different he is with me and how he never really felt this way about anyone before. It's nice to hear "you're beautiful" every day and actually believe it when he says it. So I've also brought out the same effect in him as well.

I know this is a really long post/rant. But I really just needed to get some thoughts out so my mind can be at ease for sleep lol. If you read all that... you deserve an achievement, house points, or something to help you because it's dangerous to go alone. If you got all that and understood it, be my best friend <3