A Bad Habit

So, I have a bit of a bad habit... atleast I think it's a bad habit. For some reason I always try to figure out the meaning behind peoples actions, their thought processes, and their behaviors. I can't help it, for as long as I remember I have always been this way. For the most part I can usually figure out a reason as to why someone acts the way they act or why they say the things they say. But every once in awhile... and I'm talking like, every few years I come across an individual who just stumps me. I end up feeling lost and confused because there isn't an answer. I see it as a bad habit because in some situations these people who I have no answers for end up stressing me out to some degree. Actually it's always a certain type of person. It's always someone who acts rude/mean towards people. I just don't get it... sometimes I can pinpoint why but the few times I can't I just feel so damn useless. I get why someone would lash out towards a person if there's a past... but the ones who keep doing it and just can't seem to stop are the ones I can't understand. 

I think it has alot to do with the fact that I see myself as a very nice/soft-hearted/caring person and when I see someone being mean or hear someone insulting someone else without any remorse whatsoever it's like my heart breaks a little. How on earth can some people be so cruel for no real reason? Some would say jealously has alot to do with it... ok maybe to some degree I can agree but wouldn't the hatred eventually die down? And jealous of what exactly? I think it all depends and I'm kind of getting off track here lol. Just recently I noticed myself bad mouthing someone... not to a huge amount of people, just to Kenny lol. BUT when I actually noticed what I was doing I felt horrible... I'm turning into someone I'm not because of what other people are doing/saying (that may not make sense, but it does to me haha)

Really the whole point in this was to point out a bad habit of mine but I'm not seeing that as a bad habit anymore. Now I'm realizing it's just certain people... I don't like that I can't grasp my head around why someone people can act the way they act, say the things they say and still be able to sleep at night. I just don't get how people can be so cruel. /rant